Saturday Afternoons

They strolled through the quad’s explosion of orange and red leaves, which dotted the perfect green lawn. The boys would run off together, one the receiver and one the defender, and he would loft the football in a high arching spiral. The leather would crunch amongst the leaves as the boys rolled on the ground laughing.

He and Pete used to do the same thing with Pop, though they would end up coming to blows after the third or fourth tumble. He missed Pete.

Those early September afternoons, much like this one had been perfect, the heat wasn’t oppressive like it was in summer, but the cold didn’t bite you like it could in the fall, the sunshine was plentiful in the cloudless sky.

It was a good day to be alive. He wished Pete were here to see it. They’d talked about going to college here to play football, and a hundred other dreams.

And then high school had come and they’d taken different paths, their old dreams becoming lost memories. He wondered what his boys would do. If they would stick together, or drift apart over time. He wanted to believe blood was a binder, but he knew not to put hope in clichés.

Uncle Ted had met Pop at the gate before each game. While the boys ran the sidelines and played pick-up games, Pop and Uncle Ted would stand at the top of the bleachers and watch the game.

He could hear the noise of the crowd and the scratch of the announcer’s voice over the PA as they approached the brick gates. As he did every time, he looked for Pete, even though he knew he wouldn’t be there.

The boys went to meet their friends. He climbed to the top of the bleachers alone.

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Storytelling

His fingers tapped a steady rhythm on the keys. It was the only sound in the black silence of the morning. A single bulb gave off limp light above the table before being swallowed by the darkness.

They thought he was crazy to wake so early, but no one understood the burning need to record this story. It was a competition of a sort, trying to get the words on the page before the memory of the events disappeared or his time ran out.

That was what concerned him most. The story was burned into his brain, some of the details changed, but he knew the gist of what needed telling. It was time that concerned him.

He could feel it encroaching, as though someone were following him. He felt its presence throughout each day as he sat in his cubicle staring at a computer screen and work that did not matter.

He felt it in the pain that coursed through his fingers, through his wrists, up his forearms to his elbows every time he typed a word.

He felt it in the stiffness in his lower back and the knots in his upper back, and the sciatica that forced him to get up and move every few minutes instead of focusing on the telling.

His family told him he was crazy. His friends shook their heads in disbelief. They all wished he would stop torturing himself with the memory and the telling. They all felt no story was so important enough to cause him this pain, but he knew different.

And so he woke up well before the dawn each day, brewed a cup of coffee and curled into the pain to tell the story. His fingers pummeled the keys, his words bled in black lines across the page.

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